balance hormones

Welcoming this new year with some crap.....
That's the tag of this year. Begining with some stupidity behavior, some silly act???
Oh so annoying. I mean, why i do all that act?
I blaming my unstabilities hormones....PMS..oh PMS..it's always makes my 'hallet' becoming a yummy victim.
Stated with some little mistakes, i act so weird. it feels like am the only one person who got so suffer in this world. Why is my hormones working like that? It should be working pushing my happiness wish to act in positives ways. BUt what i got? I got nothing. Even the worst, i am so crap at the begining this year. It feels so dumb.
But, the four letter(damn, i feel so alay, even alay 'pisan' euy)*LOVE, makes me melting. I can't make a war at him in a long term. It fells so lonely. Wih i can turn back the time, i'll not make that stupid act mbebeb, or maybe i'll eat some medicine to stabilize my hormones.(seriously, i must make this balance, it always make my PMS days worst)...

Mbebeb and my Debocan, Happy New Year, wish in this year, we can make another dream come true. And big Thanks MAny Alhamdulillah to Alloh SWT, for what i've got, for blessing me, my family, my mbebeb, my Debocan, and Ya Rabb, thanks for the gift, the love that still there for me...

Bismillah...Bismillah...Bismillah...
I am starting this new year with a truly Bismillah, to make all pendings dreams come true..Wish Alloh blessing me all the way.

Xoxo

Morning After Dark (Timbaland-Soshy-Nelly Furtado)

I be the same when it all goes up
I be the same when it all goes down
Not the first one, open it up
I be the last one closin it out
Don’t know if I’ll give you a shot yet
Lil Mama I’m peepin your style
Do I think you’re dope enough, yup
One way of findin it out
The way you came at me, boo
Don’t care, not afraid I’m like Wild
Really want it from head to toe
Question if she goin’ let it out
Anyway the hour glass goI don’t worry anyhow
Why don’t we see where it go

Let’s figure it out
When the cats come out the bats come out to play

In the morning after
The dawn is here, be gone be on your way
In the morning after
When the cats come out the bats come out to play

In the morning after
The dawn is here, be gone be on your way

In the morning after Dark

Come on SoShy

I got a little secret for ya
I never sleep when comes the night
But every time I smack my fingers
I switch back into the light
My moon belong to your sun

Your fire is burning my mind
Is it love or is it lust

Something that I just can’t describe
Am I the one and only
Cause you’re the only one
It felt so long and lonely
Waiting for you to come
It’s lookin bright and early
I’m willing to close my eyes
This is the unusual story

Timbo and SoShy
When the cats come out the bats come out to play
In the morning after
The dawn is here, be gone be on your way

In the morning after
When the cats come out the bats come out to play

In the morning after

The dawn is here, be gone be on your way

In the morning after Dark

Go Nelly

I need some REM but I don’t like sleeping alone
So come and pick me up as soon as you put down the phone
I wanna get into trouble, later you’ll carry me home
I wanna go undercover, I just wanna rattle your bones

Yes, I’m the one and only but I’m not the only one
So let’s work overtime on this shift, it ends with the sun
Maybe we can start a riot, maybe we can run this town
Maybe I’ll be your vampire, we could figure it out

When the cats come out the bats come out to play
In the morning after
The dawn is here, be gone be on your way

In the morning after
When the cats come out the bats come out to play
In the morning after

The dawn is here, be gone be on your way

In the morning after Dark“Morning After Dark”
Dark dark dark dark dark
In the morning after dark
Dark dark dark dark dark

In the morning after dark
Please don’t leave me girl

In the morning after dark
Please don’t leave me girl
When the cats come out the bats come out to play
When the cats come out the bats come out to play

Play play
The dawn is here be on your way

When the cats come out the bats come out to play

Play play play

The dawn is here be on your way (way way way way)

MY STYLE ::> BEP_JT

I know that you like my style [2x]
You can’t get to turn you out
Everybody in the place get wild
I know that you like my style [2x]
You’ve gotta drop it on your pants right now
Everybody in the place get wild
(So what you sayin’)
What’s up, what’s up with you girl [2x]
What’s up, what’s up with you boy [2x]
Don’t jock, don’t jock, baby don’t jock me
I drop the hotness, baby watch me
You can’t, you can’t, no you can’t stop me
’Coz I’m a champ on the rep like rocky
And when I spit it trying out at Z rocks me
Got my style trademark with the copy
Right, you know my style is naughty
Right, so don’t cock-block me
You like my style when I’m whiling out with my gang
And I gain my fame from doing my damn thing
On a mike and I turn the stage like cocaine
And I bang them thangs like a (?)
[Chorus]
I know that you like my style [2x]
You can’t get to turn you out
Everybody in the place get wild I know that you like my style [2x]
You’ve gotta drop it on your pants right now Everybody in the place get wild
(So what you sayin’)
What’s up, what’s up with you girl [2x]
What’s up, what’s up with you boy [2x]
Our style lined up when we team up JT and BEP
sold the scene up Cali to Tennessee and in between ‘em We the hottest in the biz (?)
We be rolling four Hummers and a Pima With sunset off the chi cantina Stepped out looking fresh and clean-ah Paparazzi put me in any magazine-ah I got eight million ways to rockin’ like this And ain’t nobody drop their styles like this I’ma give it to you like that and like this And my momma always told me “My baby’s a genius”
[Chorus] I know that you like my style [2x]
You can’t get to turn you out
Everybody in the place get wild
I know that you like my style [2x]
You’ve gotta drop it on your pants right now
Everybody in the place get wild
(So what you sayin’)
hat’s up, what’s up with you girl [2x]
What’s up, what’s up with you boy [2x]

[Taboo in Spanish:]
I like to keep my style on singo (singo)
Baby you can call me mijo (mijo)
I make you say “Adios, mijo”
[Spanish:]
I make it hot for you if it’s frijo
It feels like something’s heating up Timberland on the drum-drum he’s beatin’ up Black Eyed Peas, there’s no defeating us JT, he’s rocking a beat with us Them freaks, they want to freak with us After the spot they tryin’a meet with us

hey know our style is fabulous
Off the hook our style ridiculous
Ba-da-ba-da-ba-da...
What’s up, what’s up with you girl [2x]
What’s up, what’s up with you boy [2x]
I know that you like my style [2x]
I’ve been gone for a while But I’m back with a brand new style Black Eyed Peas
(Black Eyed Peas)JT (that’s me) And we out baby (out baby) Ba-da-ba-da-ba-ba-ba...

good or bad

Few days ago, i have a dream. According to me, it is one of a nasty dream. Disgusting.

How can i shit at my dream???

Ewww....

It's makes me feel not in a mood all day. Just for fun, i am asking one of my girl, which is she almost believe some things, that i don't believe. And she says, that i am gonna have some luck. W o w. awesome. All i need, this several month. All i want this several time.

That is the some opinion, as some coment at my friends status at his facebook. How can we got some dream? Lucky us, not meet at our dream and grab the same toilet.lol...

but, when i asking on of my friend/boy, i feel so dissapointed. After he do some research, and asking his very profesional shaman, his Mang google, he suggest me not to do the same. Why???

I'm so curious. And, i decide to check it out.

For the kraby patty sakes, why the hell am i doing? Why i should do that? Why, oh Why?? But, i try to calm down my mind, and how can i believe something like that. isn't it call MUSRIK in my belifing?

Eventually, i decide, to trust the good one. I don't wanna ruin my whole day with some negative thought. Because, this time, i am sooooo waiting for some big result for what i've done lately. And i hope Alloh gives me a good and a statisfied result. amin ya Rabb...

ps:sory for the pic. It's kinda nasty.

i know it. BUt lucky u, i'm not putiing the real one. lol...

i've googling some shit pic, that's the good one...lol

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

S P R E A D

Nikki, a cute and something playboy at LA is so enjoying his way of life. Sex, partying, girl are so him. Samantha one of her victim, a beautifull, smart, hot and rich woman. Nikki meet her at a party, and then Nikki flattering her with his cute and something. For several time, Nikki lives in Samantha's house.
Someday, Nikki meet Heather at a cafe. She's a waitress. Nikki got a feeling at her. But finally Nikki find out that Nikki play the same card as him. This is make Nikki dissapoint, but he have been in love with her. This makes his relation with Samantha going bad. Nikki decide to out of Samantha's life. But, unfortunatly, he accept so many rejected. Until he meet Heather again, and now, he lives with Heather.
But, Heather must leaves Nikki, because Heather perception of the realistic, not just based of love. Money, better living, treat as a queen make her choosing her fiance at New York, eventhough Nikki have been came to NY to get Heather back.
This movie ending with no happy ending. It's ending with a frog that keep cheewing, i mean trying swallow a white mouse. Lol...


sometimes, in my mind, i wanna taste the same live like them. Free, wild, and doing whatever what i wanna do. If i have no family like mine now, i will go wherever arround the world, and doing what i can do, be what i want to be. But, absolutely, in a postive way, it doesn't mean, i wanna be a whore or something, it's just, i wanna feel free, far away from home. But, lucky me, have a perfect family, perfect love, full of affection, and lot of love from friend. however, i love my life, it's just, if i have another life, i don't wanna be an Asian people, so many role, so many damn shit people. lol...


xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

RED

Boggs, Mateson, Moses, Victoria

Being old, doesn't mean, can't play in some action movie. This is prove by Bruce Willis, in his very own latest movie, RED. Retiread Extremely Dangerous.

Being CIA agent, is that so dangerous? Woow...Sometimes, i wanna be one of them. It's look so cool, awesome an sexy. Their moves, the way that they handle the gun, pointing it at the enemy, and jump for one building to another chasing the bad ass.

Frank Moses, a retired CIA agent, being chase by a bad people from the goverment, the Vice President, who have a bad history at Guatemala. Sarah Ross, a woman, that Moses like in a few time, also being chase.

There is one scene that i feel so action in this movie, it's when Moses came out from a cops car, that he use, and start shooting Cooper(the CIA agent). So awesome.

Moses start asking for a help from his retired friends. Starting from Joe Mateson, Marvin Boggs, Victoria, for solving this problem. They all old, but their act, their spirit never die.

I think this comedy action movie so match for our parents, remains them to young Bruce Willis, Morgan Freeman, Hellen Mirren, etc.

this is one of my fav scene....so rock..Victoria and Marvin Boggs keeps shooting the Vice President, while Moses trying another plan.

I hope, one day i can serve our country one of a good action story of mine. My Dear Alloh, please show me a way to reach my dreams. Lop Yu Alloh..

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

R A T A TO U I L L E

Thiz muvi giving me some advice. a simple advice. Keep on trying to do whatever you want to reach your dreams.

A rat who can smells good at food, and want to cook for what he is eating, is an awesome rat. Fate as a rat, make him not become the ussual rat, stealing and dirty. He got a different perception from his family and his friend. He is truly believe that rat not must stealing for feeding theirselves and their family. until he got lost in the middle of town/paris, at the famous restaurant, a place where the chef is his idol, he can guide Linguini make some yummy food.

Rat is some nasty animal. Pliz, no offense rat, but you guys so annoying. I even can not gives any advantages from ur presence. I mean, in my life. BUt at the food chain, u are so needed to feed some animal, such as snake.

***

I dunno how to describe this movie, except, must watch.

this is so hilarious, so awesome, funny, and so entertaining. The France music, make me feel so France, so romantic.

Hope someday, i can lay my self at lounge from a roof of France hotel. Feel the air, feel how the cheese smell, looking at the hot guys passing through in front of me, directing a romance movi, shoping some branded outfit, meet some hot models, and have a banglo there. amin....Plis hear me Dear Alloh..

PS: how is the taste of ratatouille? somebody, plis bring me some...

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

my bad habit

My dearest debocan,
Lately, i can't controled myself, from anger. I dunno why. And it's so annoying, when i must angry without any reason. I am so wasted.

Dear debocan,
I kinda need some air right here. Need a bunch of a new stuff. And i dunno excatly when i will do some of my wish, because some reason.

Dear debocan,
This is my very first post, after some problem, some crazy things happened, that some stupid things happened.
Right in the middle last month, i've got sicked. Sick from all the things happened to me. all the promblem that i've got, and really sick with the weather. I've got fever, flu, dizzy, and cough.
And it's very funny, when the night igot sick, i watch "Shutter Island", a psico muvie. It's so annoying, then i must shut down the muvie. And my sick getting worst that night. BUt i don't think it's related with the muvi.

Dear debocan,
Now, i have to live with my brother, which make me become her nanny. It's kinda big responsibility, because he have so many demand, so many wish, and we always got a fighting because of a little thing. But, so far, i just enjoy it. Hope he can change her way of life. and i can control my life.

Dear debocan,
My other bad habit,...is always getting stress when i don't have money at the time. I hate it. Why people always do some pending stuff??? Don't they know, that i have to buy some food, some makeup, some stuff, some stuff for my family, and else..and else....

Dear debocan,
Help me changing my self, change my bad habit. I don't wanna be a girl with bad habit, especially with my anger.

Dear Alloh SWT
Help me ya Rabb, help me find a way to make my habit change. help me to find a way to make my life eaiser.

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

My Bro

My bro. yogie achmad putranta napitupulu.....

my girls says, that he is just looks like a korean boy. cute is it?...LOL

he can play drum, good at playing game, and really love Gita Gutawa. 

GROWNS UP

Wuhuuuu...  
this muvi is so funtastic. It's kinda make me wanna have some family, but later, long later ofcourse, after i take a nice shot for my entire wish. For a very smoth way to serve a family muvi. A better way to present some action of a family things. It's make desperatly miss my family much. I know i'm kinda weak at family muvi. tears, and a lot of tears. Since i life by myself, all i wanna do is make my family happy, and it's hope like what Adam Sandlers do at this muvi, as a rich daughter and have some cute daughter n son, and some mortage, some rock car, and a very lot of money at the bank.
It's kinda make me curios what am i gonna be in 20 years later????
Am i gonna be a housewife that doing cooking, gardening, moping, taking care of my baby, or even am a career woman, that coming home late after the emergency meeting who not be able to see her very own daughter spelling her first word?, or even am gonna be a single mother that i never expect? Or maybe, i still single, still in my own mission, that am gonna save this world with my own way(what a nice bullshit ever).
Meeting some friend for the next 20 years it's not gonna be the same. It's all not about me, my girl, and all the cute boy that stolen my heart. It's all about the price of the expensive diapers, the healthy menu, the place when you got the botox, the girl name "Bla..Bla..", that always sending the husband xoxo text, what's good insurance for the kids future. Wuhuuu... It's so damn hard to believe that i'am so close to think all the bunch stuff.
And this muvie remains me that all the traditional things not that lame, it's kinda cool, rock, so much fun. Climbing the tree, swimming at the river (which i never did, and it's my biggest wish that my kids wanna do this), stolen the neighbor's mango(not a good idea excatly), and do a bunch of the things that far away from the PSP, the phone, the internet, the notebook, barbie/bart, and some modern stuff that the kids crazy about.
This muvie, one more time, giving me a break about this insanity modern life. The target, the things that out of my control, it's making me wanna jump to the sea.(and hope some dolphin save me or something).

This muvie must watch....musssst seennn......

And what i got? I got to make sure myself, that i must have a look like Salma Hayek in this muvie, some MILF(lol), hot, sexy, awesome, and have a good taste in her outfit. And that two little boy, i must have kids like them. And their "hey dad, what's the big box that attached back at the tv?". Well cute boys, you guys even can feel blind in my some part in this country coz there are some place that not have some electric yet. So, poor, yeah, just ask the goverment.... Well, baby, that's just the rest of the tv. Like the rest of the goverment's things to do.  

And can you imagine, what are the sweet memories about the nature that our heirs will got? Are the kids still can breathe a fresh O2? Are the kids can see a lake, a river, a sea??? So curious. 

Well, hope that will never happened, coz, i'm gonna teach my kids swim in a river (even i can's swim and maybe got drowing together). 

"I'm totally wasted"

uhhh....

Ps: My dearest countries movi maker, plis make one as much good as this good muvi. But, if you can't make one of them, i can make you. Trust me. 

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

NINA LESTIANI NURJANAH

My Dear friend Eneng Nina Lestiani Nurjanah Napitupulu(lu jadi Napitupulu aja ya)
Selamat hari lahir ya eneng,
Mudah-mudahan usianya berkah buat dirimu, keluargamu, sahabatmu, orang disekitarmu, dan agama bangsamu juga.
Sidangnya lancar, dan juga jodohnya didekatkan.
Gak tau mau ngomong apa lagi.

lop yu neng...


Nb: tolong, sering-seringlah baca blog saya...wakkkaaa....

xoxo

Debbie Miranda NApitupulu

update:after ur graduate

The Experiment

Film ini bener-bener Gila!Sakit Mental!Cacat abis! (gila, gw Abg gaul gila gini)!!!
Tegang. Penasaran. Kesel. Tegang lagi. Pengen bertindak. Jangan aneh, perilaku ini bakal muncul when we watch this muvi. Kalo kata saya, don't ever watch this movie alone, or even twice! It's gonna change yourself into someone bad, even worst.
Dari yang kagak kejam, kagak bisa "stand", bisa ngalamin perubahan drastis yang bener-bener bikin perubahan yang kagak disangka-sangka.
Gak normal neh yang buat film. Bisa buat betis saya tegang. buat tangan saya gatel mukul orang disamping saya(sori beb..), dan bisa buat saya berubah kejam(memposisikan diri jadi Adrien Brody=Travis), yang habis diremehin n disiksa sama Forest Whitaker=Barris. Gemes, pengen nonjok, pengen bertindak....
Salut ama yang buat, pasti observasinya keren. Film ini kena banget ke psikologis penonton. Sebelumnya film ini udah dibuat tahun 2002. Tapi diremake lagi tahun 2010.
Suka ama akting Adrien Brody(Kingkong, Splice, The Pianist, The Experiment).

Udah nonton ini, ditambah denger orang sombong menyombongkan kesombongannya, lama-lama gw bisa jadi kayak Barris neh...Lol......

Need some fresh air, nonton ini kagak tepat rasanya, tapi saya terhiburlah, walau agar merinding membayangkan kekejaman, Holocaust, demonstasi, pertikaian, dll-nya.

Love the peace yuk guys!!!

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

Simpati Minus Simpati

Realitanya handphone telah menjadi kebutuhan primer saat ini. Sejalan dengan kebutuhan itu, maka pulsa pun menjadi follower-nya. Namun, sadarkah kita, bahwa sesungguhnya, pulsalah yang kembali menjadi kebutuhan primer yang sangat lux dibanding benda yang membuat kebutuhan ini ada. Pengeluaran untuk pulsa jauh lebih banyak dibanding handphone itu sendiri. 

Dan pihak yang paling diuntungkan dengan kebutuhan mendasar ini, adalah para penyedia layanan pulsa ini, baca provider. Bagaimana tidak? Sampai saat ini masih terdengar ada nama baru di deretan proviser yang muncul di Indonesia ini. Bahkan satu provider menyediakan beberapa alternatif pilihan dengan nama-nama berbeda. 

Nyatanya, provider yang saya gunakan selama bertahun-tahun ini, agak mengecewakan saya. Dimana seharusnya kita para pengguna layanan yang katanya sangat profesional dalam melayani pelanggan, dan memiliki berjuta umat yang menggunakan layanan mereka, harus dibandingkan dengan pendatang-pendatang baru di dunianya, dan bahkan memiliki nilai-nilai positif yang buktinya banyak memikat pelanggan untuk "murtad"(pindah ke provider lain). 

*Simpati*. Provider ini, memang memiliki kualitas sinyal yang kuat, dan setelah saya bandingkan dengan beberapa rekan pengguna provider lain, hasilnya sama ketika saya berada di luar daerah, bahkan kadang sinyal saya kalah. Provider saya memang menyediakan beberapa keringanan bagi yang suka sms-an, online, dan juga saling chit-chat di telfon. Namun dibalik kemudahan ini ada banyak kesulitan yang perlu di hadapi. 

Diantaranya: 

Tm. Rp. 2000 yang dihabiskan untuk menelfon sepuasnya dari pagi (gak tau tepatnya jam berapa) sampai pukul 1700. Lumayan murah. Namun bila dibandingkan dengan provider lain yang menguras hanya dibawah Rp. 1000, simpati menjadi top list termahal.

100 Sms gratis per hari. Setiap mengirim sekian sms simpati akan memberikan bonus 100sms. Dari 3 sms gratis 100, berubah menjadi 8 sms menjadi 100 sms, dan saat saya mengecek sent item saya yang sudah melebihi 10 sms, saya belum juga mendapat sms gratis. 

Cm. Call me. Dulu kita bisa menikmati layanan ini dengan Rp O, namun sekarang Simpati mengutip Rp 50 setiap penggunaan layanan ini. 

Flash. layanan internet, yang bila dibandingkan dengan provider lain, simpati cukup mahal. 

Dan saat puasa dan Lebaran Idul Fitri ini adalah saat yang tepat bagi para provider memberikan pelayanan yang terbaik bagi para pelanggannya, mengingat penggunaan handphone dengan berbagai aktivitasnya yang meningkat untuk saling sekedar menegur sapa sampai penyambung silaturahmi. 

Dan pada akhirnya saya hanya bisa menilai, simpati minus simpati bagi para pelanggannya. 

x.o.x.o

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

S P L I C E

Liburan saya sudah berakhir. Yah...ini benar-benar berita yang agak menyedihkan, padahal jadwal pekerjaan rumah yang seharusnya dikerjakan pada saat libur, belum pada kelar. Terpaksa menambah satu hari lagi untuk mengerjakan banyak hal. Ya termasuk melahap SATC. 

Setelah sang hallet menjemput dari kosan sang adik, dengan Orike-nya, saya langsung meluncur ke kosan. Agenda sudah ditentukan, bersih-bersih, belanja bulanan, hunting film, n nonton tentunya. 

Kami memilih SLICE(and i promise, not giving my sis thiz nasty, weird, annoying(in some scene)). 

Ironis kalo memang ada kejadian yang mirip/serupa. Dan berharap tidak ada yang seperti ini. Saya termasuk orang yang tidak begitu setuju dengan adanya kloning. Saya punya my own reason. Apalagi menyatukan DNA hewan dengan DNA manusia. What a weird option to cure people's illness. (alasan di film ini). Ketegangan-ketegangan di film ini terbentuk dari rasa penasaran dari ilmuwan-ilmuwan yang udah nyatuin DNA-DNA-nya hewan yang berhasil, dan penasaran kalau disatuin ama manusia. Dan hasilnya, mereka mendapati perkembangan yang luar biasa. Campuran dari reptil, mamalia, amphibia, aves itu berhasil jadi mahluk yang hampir 50%nya lebih mirip manusia yang dikutuk tidak berambut, berekor, dan berkaki ayam(kebayang gak tuh?). 

Rasa penasaran sang ilmuwan wanita ini masih belum selesai saat si mahluk aneh ini sudah hampir melumpuhkan tangannya. Dia masih berjuang memberi makan, mengajari mengeja, mengajari mengenal benda etc. 

Absurd sih ceritanya, tapi keren, bisa buat sang hallet betah nontonnya, karna emang tegang. Biasanya nonton ama dia, yang ada juga sebagai penghantar tidurnya. 

PS: mauliate mbeb, for nemenin akhir liburan ini.....

x.o.x.o

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

L E B A R A N

Dear Debocan, 

Di hari yang fitrah ini, saya mengucapkan Selamat Merayakan HAri Kemenangan, Hari Yang Fitri, dan maafkan apabila saya sudah mencoreng kata-kata kasar di tubuh blog tersayang ini. Maaf jika curhatan saya agak-agak kacau, agak-agak misteri, agak-agak ngawur. Saya sangat berharap kamu dapat menerima tulisan saya apa adanya. 

Dear Debocan, 

Blog yang saya cintai, kamu tahu, hari raya pertama ini saya rayakan bersama adik saya Dinda Febrima Napitupulu dan Yogie Achmad Putranta Napitupulu. Berhubung saya sedang dalam keadaan tidak "suci", jadi saya tidak bisa menginjakkan kaki di mesjid dan ikut solat Id, seperti mereka di lapangan kampus Widiatama sana. 

Dear Debocan, 

Malam takbiran kemarin, saya sangat bahagia, melihat wajah ayahanda (Imran Napitupulu) dan ibunda(Masrina Farida Siahan), juga si kecil Yosie Fatimah Napitupulu walau hanya lewat webcam saja, air mata ini hampir membasahi wajah yang diseka demi terlihat cantik di depan cam, agar ayahanda dan ibunda tidak melihat hamba kucel, walau setelah seharian berkegiatan. Hamba menahan rasa itu, rasa dimana, selama 6 tahun Lebaran, saya tidak bisa "sungkem" dan merasakan ketupat super enak sang ibunda. Saya kangen. Tapi saya harus menahannya. Banyak alasan dear blog, saya harap kamu bisa mengerti, dan saya sangat bangga dengan kamu yang tidak terlalu mencampuri urusan saya dengan pertanyaan ini dan itu...(LOL), pertahankan itu dear blog!!!

Dear Debocan, 

Sampai detik ini bang Toyib memang belum diketemukan, dan sejarah hanya mencatat 3 kali lebaran dan 3 kali puasa dia tidak pulang-pulang, tapi apakah sesungguhnya mereka tahu, rasa yang saya pendam lebih menyakitkan dari keluhan istri bang Toyib itu. 6 tahun tahu gak...6 tahun. Janganlah nyanyikan lagu itu lagi, kisah saya lebih pekat darinya. Menyiksa rasanya mendengar lagu itu.

Dear Debocan, 

Saya yakin Alloh SWT akan memberikan berkah yang sangat berlimpah pada saya dan keluarga saya di tahun 1431 H ini. Dan ini di tandai dengan awal yang sangat indah. Saya dan adik-adik saya hangout, buka bareng, and shopping bareng for the very first time(Yipppie). Sungguh karunia yang sangat luar biasa dari Sang Pencipta. Terima Kasih Ya Alloh SWT atas karuniaMu ini. 

Dear Debocan, 

Selama libur lebaran ini, saya akan menghabiskan waktu bersama adik-adik saya, dan setelah itu, deadline saya sudah menunggu dengan setia, dan dear blog keep acompany me ya!!!! 

Dear Debocan, 

Keep listening at me, keep reading about me, keep here with me. So much love for u my dear Debocan, my Dear Blog....

PS: Terima kasih buat angkot-angkot yang masih berkeliaran walau sudah larut, kalian sangat hebat, kalian juga sama hebatnya dengan saya(what???), kalian berjuang demi keluarga, sungguh sangat terharu(tapi stoplah Togel-ing, itu bakal buat kalian tambah miskin, trust me).

x.o.x.o

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

my shenanigans

Look at my so much collection. I maybe LOST in some life. My BROTHERS AND SISTERS can't even received reply text soon. And, it's just feel like a DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES to have all of this. I am a GOSSIP GIRL with my 90210 zip code, and my FRIENDS are no longer exist againts this. And i should be written at VAMPIRE DIARIES for destroying their timeline at night. And i dont have to count what NUMBERS of movie i've been dine. (LOL). 

Beberapa waktu ini, saya sedang madness, dengan kata "shenanigans". Status widow while my boy out of my area(considering he is at a job's training), makes me feels bad, lonely, and kinda freaky with my sleep time. even a bat lose if they fight with me to catch the prey. Am focusing on my subject a.k.a something that makes me stay long at a site(kaskus or twitter), and the bat waiting for their food. My job kinda need a little longer stayed at night, that's makes me love the night life. But don't ever ask me to join the crowded, it'll make me fainted(too much to say), coz, i don't really like crowded. 

back to my topic.

what am i doing while the vacation and my spare time?

before i tell more about my spare time, i would like to pronounce that i am no longer exist in FB, b'coz of some reason that i can't explain. and i prefere Twitter, and my blog to stay on this something world that keep makes me believe that i am still alive, and i enjoy it. So, here i am, writing a new post after my big 25 a few days ago. And this is my 1st officially post. I'm so empty with my schedule, my book has been sell well, altough just 2 title (but lof of ALHAMDULILLAH), no deadline until Idul Fitri, and no office until, i don't know yet time. Lol..

And it's so me with full of me, and just about me. 

i keep thinking that something out there has to be taken out by me. And i don't know exactly what it is, but i truly believe, that it's really REAL. So, i decide to enjoy my vacation time, with all the things that i want to do. I do sleep, i do watch, i do blog, i do write, i do shopping, and of course i do eat and i do date. yey....

for some reason i'm so desperate in sex and the city. i think it's kinda rock to have a wild life like one of them. And i am so obsessed with Carrie Bradshaw. Her life give me spirit. Her freedom, her style, her way of life, her chumminess with Samantha, Miranda, and Charlotte, and so don't like her love life with Mr Big. 

     So many lesson i learned. 

Carrie makes me believe that her way of life, it's so me. My deepest madness to the life she has. Women do need a closet like her(even Samantha is the richest), glamour gown like hers, so damn sexy heel(even it seems like hells) like hers, that goodie bag like hers(every single bag is fabulous), and her thin body, i swear God, i must have a sexy thin body like her.

So, i'll complete my collection for SATC, ASAP i have my money.

            I N C E P T I O N

This movie has open wide my mind, that i am so "inception". How can the man that created this movie know what in my mind. (not that kind literally, just some point). 

I really don't understand, what kind of people i am. Sometimes i believe i am a different person that born with a mission. Any mission.But i can't named it. It's so annoying when u don't know it.

For some night, Alloh SWT, just sent me some idea through  my dream, and it's so romantic, drama, and so comedy. And untul the moment i write down this post i still don't know what to  do with that blessing idea. But, thanks Alloh SWT, i do lop Yu.

DENDENG AND TERI

It's no ones sell anyone in this town to fill my appetite?????? So damn hungry and so damn bored with the menu. And am asking my dear mom to make me some DENDENG n TERI to accompany me at LEBARAN with my Brother and my sister. So yummy, i can't even say it in mush words. Just "TASTE IT". 

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

Zzzz....Hufffhh....Yaikzzz....Yipppi...

Zzzzz....

Negosiasi melanjutkan petualangan setelah merenung (lbh tepatnya maoto) dari jam 12 malam ampe saur, dan dari saur mata lima watt ampe jam 7 pagi, GAGAL. Mata saya tetep pada prinsipnya ingin tutup. Dah cukup banyak yang dilihat, diterawang dan di raba(dah kayak duta duit asli neh) ama saya hari ini. Bulan ramadhan ini agak membuat kacau jadwal tidur, bahkan saya terlahir seperti layaknya kelelawar. I’m just like a nocturnal creature that gonna haunt for some prey. And I want the prey to be money, Brandon, and teen serial(barat yg pasti). Air super duper dingin pun jadi mantra yang cocok buat mata tetep melek. Demi ibunda sang hallet. Dan saya sudah bertekad, saat tiba waktunya nanti, di atas kasur empuk saya, dan dibawah selimut lembut dan kain coklat saya, saya berjanji akan segera…Zzz..zz.zzz.

Huffhhhh…
Hari ini gerah banget ya. Ada yang ngerasa gak sih? Tapi emang belakangan ini isu global warming agak dipertanyakan, kudunya kan gejalanya makin panas, tapi malem kok malah makin dingin, yg bener es mencair atau global warming. Oh..what so ever, I don’t really know. Tapi gerahnya hari ini bukan buat ketek basah lagi, banjir juga udah lewat, dan tsunami(beuh..). Menuju peraduan nasib emang butuh banyak pengorbanan. Hela nafas panjang ini bukan karna gerah, tapi karna some news that make me sad. Gak jadi ketemu hari ini, ya makin gak jelaslah nasib buku saya. Hufhhh…Belum lagi ada yg wanna borrow some money. Whaaat???? Belum berakhir juga tuh helaan nafaspanjang, dan Alhamdulillah masih nafas, walau agak sering panjang. Nunggu sang bis umat-umat yang agak seret kayak saya ini, kok lama ya??Finnally, ancot jadi pilihan.Huffhhh…

Yaikzz…
Nah ini dia scene yang paling menegangkan. Action campur humor campur drama. My hunc says that some bad people are gonna do some bad things at the car. And I have no gut to deny it. Some suspicios man with shirt and backpack…soo..sooo smelly, and they are like do some morse one another to monitoring their prey. They’ve been seducing my nose with their smelly. It’s so suck, and I finnaly decide to go out from that car. Alhamdulillah, I can breathe a fresh air. Thank Alloh. What are they eat? It’s just like sweat mixing some stinking shocks and some stale crap. Yaikzzz…

Yippie….
Dear bed dear, finally I can laying my body here. So..soooo relaxing. And, as what I promising myself, I fulfilling my promising, I get some sleep. Oh sweet dear, it’s so calm. But, I just missed something good. My hallet came visit me, and give my some surprise. It’s like in a dream when I hear his voice, and when I came outside my room, I saw him, with his new hair. Yiipppie….

Dibalik kesulitan pasti ada kemudahan dan keindahan, and that’s what I got today. Thanks Alloh for everything, and thanx my Hallet for surprising me, it’s so full of thrill.

PS:kudu extra hati-hati sekarang ini. banyak setan yang keliaran. kemarin aja temen gw ditilang.(nyambung gak sih???, kumaha maneh wae). belum berita di tv, banyak yang kerampokan, bank kebobolan, pegadaian, supermarket, rumah mewah, waduh ne para pelindung bangsa neh kekurangan ato kebanyakan kerjaan???ya, kalianlah yg tau kerjaan kalian. semangatlah...

x.o.x.o
Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

It's Me Again

Dear Alloh, ...
It's Me again,
here i am, i'm standing in my own foot, with completly part of my body...
I just come back from the hospital, come visit some my bf family that got treated.
When i looking my surround and it's really make me feel so teribble.
Sometimes i feel so misery, my life suck, my life full of crap, my life full of sadness, but now...when i see all the people with some various deficiencies.
Dear Alloh...
I'm so thank you, for every single breathe that i have, for every little piece of love that come to me, for every way You gave me for every wish what i want.
I don't know how to show my gratitude.
Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah..Alhamdulillah.Allahu akbar....
I do love U Alloh SWT..

x.o.x.o
Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

i am such a drama queen

Baru beberapa jam melepas sang 'hallet' dalam misi perdamaiannya dengan dunia perekonomian dirinya dan keluarga kami kelak(amin..Lol). Biasanya, sambil menunggu berbuka, hal-hal absurd, seperti membahas imajinasi aneh dan liar kami, (such as, artis sapa yg pgn dicium, dia:KD(weeew), saya: tetep pada aa ariel, dan yg lebih absurd, kl dia cewek:Rhoma irama menjadi pilihannya, kalau saya:luna maya). 

Ahhh, mengingatnya saja sudah seperti air mendidih, udah ingin meluap. Kompornya perlu dimatikan. Biar didihannya tidak muncrat kemana-mana. (???)

Kami masih di zona yang sama sebenarnya, namun sayangnya sang halet tidak bisa meninggalkan tempat pelatihan, harus mendekam di negri yang dikotakin pagar-pagar biar mereka tidak bisa lompat seperti kelinci, dan kembali pada saya(sungguh, BRI keterlaluan(joke ah,ntar lu pecat lg aa gw).

Masih ingat beberapa hari yg lalu kami berdebat tentang Indonesia yang sudah keracunan keong SinJo. Sungguh terlalu rasanya, sang hallet, memihak pada mereka, dimana saya disini, mengurung diri dan memikirkan bangsa ini m au dibawa kemana jika orang-orang aneh yang memvonis mereka sebagai gadis-gadis dengan karya yang pantas 'dijual', dan bahkan menjadi trending tweet(sedunia), betapa malunya saya ketika mereka disandingkan dengan orang-orang yang terkenal dengan langkah upload video ke Youtube, yg kini menjadi bintang. No offense buat para penggemar SinJo. Salut ama keberaniannya tampil. Tapi after that? what should they sell? 

Saling meluncurkan gencatan argumen-argumen, saling berbicara dengan nada selevel di atas biasanya, dan saling tuding menuding tidak mengerti karya....ahhhh..kangen.

Ramadhan ini rasanya berbeda dari 6 tahun bersama. Dirimu kini jauh(Lembang-Bandung), dan status kita resmi menjadi LDR, selama 5 hari dalam seminggu. 

Sahabat, musuh, kekasih, koki, supir pribadi, teman, pacar, tetangga, pak ustad, guru spiritualku, myhalf soul, hope u enjoy ur day dear.....

xoxo

Debbie MIranda Napitupulu

25 Hantu (part 1)

Seram. Merinding. Ketakutan. Enggak mau ketemu.

Itu yang saya rasakan pada sosok yang satu ini. Sosok yang beberapa tahun ini juga menjadi idola para pembuat film negri ini. Saya enggak ngerti kenapa mereka diekspos terlalu sebegitunya, sehingga tenggeran film-film kita tidak jauh dari pocong, sepupunya kuntilanak, pamannya gendoruwo, sahabatnya pocong perawan, setan-setan pemerkosa lainnya.(crap...)

Bukan mereka yang mau saya bahas. Saya tidak perlu membahas mereka malam ini. Rasanya agak kurang nikmat membahas mereka ditengah jiwa yang lagi galau ini.  

Belakangan ini saya merasa dihantui, di buat risau, sangat menyita pikiran dan tenaga untuk melawan gejolaknya yang semakin menakutkan. Momoknya yang cukup membuat resah badan dan pikiran ini, ingin rasanya disemprot anti hantu. Tapi sayangnya tidak bisa, mereka bukan seperti kecoa yang bisa mati dengan sekali semprot.

Pernah saya bernegosiasi dengan Tuhan, dan saya tidak akan bosan melakukan transaksi ini, dengan jaminan saya ingin memberikan lebih buat diri saya dan keluarga saya, tapi rasanya kok absurd sekali saya ini. Saya malu, saya minder, saya tidak percaya diri. 

Rumit ya...

Rumit sekali seperti sekarang. Ingin rasanya berlari-lari di halaman belakang rumah, memanjat pohon jambu, melihat pandangan ke atas langit yang bersih, melihat ke bawah pohon, dimana ada kolam ikan, dan di sebelah kanan ada beberapa jenis sayuran yang ditanam oleh sang bunda. Mungkin di hati sang bunda, "puaskanlah di atas pohon itu, kelak pohon yang kau naiki akan lebih tinggi, dan tampak terbatas di kanan kirimu, karna cabang-cabang pohonmu perlu di tunggu panjang agar bisa melewatinya dan melihat celah lain".

Kurang rasanya saat-saat ini. Tidak perlu memlikirkan besok mau memakai baju warna apa, sepatu yang mana yang pantas, duit yg dikeluarkan jangan melebihi batas, dan beban-beban lainnya yang menyakitkan untuk disebut rinci.

Sudahlah, sudah waktunya mungkin, saya harus bisa...

xoxo

Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

Unfinished LOve StOry

Semakin kuat kisah yang ingin dilukis kembali. Semakin kuat juga buat nulisnya. judul udah ada, kerangka udah ada(still in my mind sebenernya).

Lucu baca salah satu thread di kaskus, tentang orang yang masih diingat dari dulu. Saya tidak mau membahas, takut memicu api, ntar kebakaran lagi....bwahahaha.....
Nanti partner saya dalam mengelola blog neh mwarah lagi, bisa-bisa saya tidak jadi kliennya diBRI(mengingat beliau nantinya akan menjadi AO, dan saya adalah nasabah pertama yang akanmengajukan pinjaman untuk membangun butik, lol...)
Semangat ya mbebeb....

Maaf ya, lagi denger lagu Marron 5, Nothing Last Forever, rasanya enak banget bayangin orang....
But i promise u, u lah pokoknya selalu....



Judul ini nantinya bakal saya buat cerita, yang dalam pikiran saya sih romantis, lucu, sedih, dan menggemparkan.lol....
semoga saja tidak ada yang mengambil judul inim kalau pun ada, ya terkutuklah..
(oopss lagi puasa, maaf ya alloh,.....)




x.o.x.o
Debbie Miranda Napitupulu

Getting crowded over here

Getting crowded over here...
That's what i feeled in my mind...
Fumble...
Am i?

Menghitung hari, dan meratapi jejak.
Wanita yang penuh dengan kebingungan dan kegalauan itu komat kamit di atas sejadah merahnya dengan balutan mukenah putih bercorak batik, hadiah pertama dari sang kekasih. Apa yang diucapkannya? Dalam bahasa apa?

Sebentar lagi, ya sebentar lagi, dalam hitungan hari, wanita itu akan genap seperempat abad. Apa yang sudah dilakukannya di dunia ini? Apa yang sudah dihasilkannya? Bagaimana dia menjalani kehidupan ini? Akankah ia menemui kisah yang diinginkannya?
***

Saya juga sangat ingin tahu, jadi apa dia?
Pernah dia bercerita pada saya, tentang kegalauannya pada dunia ini, pada apa yang diinginkannya, pada nasibnya, nasib keluarganya, dan nasib adik-adiknya. Saya ikut merasakan kegalauan dan kerisauan itu, mengingat keinginannya yang agak "aneh" agak nyeleneh dari keinginan orang-orang yang ada di sekitarnya. Pernah juga dia bercerita ketakutannya akan angka yang terus mengejarnya. Angka yang menghujani hidup ini, dengan kecepatannya yang bisa mematikan. Angka yang cukup banyak, angka yang cukup butuh tanggung jawab, angka yang butuh ketegasan.
***

Aaaghhhhh.....
Butuh obat penenang rasanya, biar bisa tenang, biar bisa lupain semua masalah yang ada.
Andai saja bisa melakukan negosiasi dengan Sang Pencipta dengan angka yang akan disandang tanggal 1 nanti. rasanya angka itu belum waktunya saya terima, mengingat perlakuan yang sangat butuh beban, dan perilaku yang benar-benar bukan saya.
***

Sang Pencipta....
Saya tidak tau harus bagaimana, tunjukkanlah saya jalan. Pun itu memberatkan keinginan saya, pun itu membuat saya terbebani, yang penting saya berguna..
***

Sang Pencipta
Kuagungkan KebesaranMu dimana pun saya berada,
Kusebarkan KebesaranMu dipelosok jejak saya
Kiranya berikan saya Kebesaran KeajaibanMu...
***


x.o.x.o

I kissed A girl -Katy Perry

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It’s not what I’m used to
Just wanna try you on
I’m curious for you
Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don’t mean I’m in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

No, I don’t even know your name
It doesn’t matter
You’re my experimental game
Just human nature
It’s not what good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don’t mean I’m in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

Us girls, we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist, so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain’t no big deal, it’s innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don’t mean I’m in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

26

26

Beberapa hari yang lalu baru tersadar, angka ini bakal jadi angka yang menghantui hidup.

Bagaimana tidak??

Bertambah satu usia, bertambah satu kesempatan mengukir sejarah dalam hidup.

Cuma angka memang, tapi impact-nya luar biasa.

Saya masih saja mengotak atik keyboard ladie saya, dan berpikir keras, apa yang harus saya tulis. Angka ini, angka ini secara perlahan membunuhku. Beberapa angka mendekatinya saja saya sudah merasakan dunia ini semakin sempit, semakin mengotak-ngotakkan gerak saya. Saya masih ingin bebas, dan saya masih ingin melakukan kegilaan saya.

Pun ketika waktu berputar cepat, bisakah angka 20 saja yang saya pegang? Bisakah saya menego?

Misi ini mustahil, sama halnya seperti film Mission Imposibble.

Tapi, keyakinan akan perubahan bisa saya dapatkan, saya bisa berpijak pada lelaki yang sudah hampir 6 tahun ini mengisi hari-hariku, mengisi inbox hapeku, mengisi list orang yang harus dijumpai hari ini, mengisi sudut mata ini, dan mengisi hati ini.

Kita berbeda. Itu kepastian.Itu yang buat kita satu.

Dengan usiamu yang bertambah ini, sekiranya jadilah panutan bagi saya, saya yang masih butuh banyak pegangan hidup, butuh banyak nasehat hidup.

Ajari saya bagaimana melewati usia ini, berbagilah terus dengan saya, dan ceritakanlah pada saya bagaimana rasanya, pun itu sulit untuk dicerna untuk orang seperti saya.

Selamat hari lahir Mbebebku, Abebku, My Obeb, Halletku, Oto-otoku, Aaku, BOCANku…AGUS ISKANDAR

x.o.x.o

_dmn_