baby chaos

i kinda feel so mortified lately. yet, can't barely think clear what's the causes for sure. but, a little thing can make me feel so frustated, and it drives me crazy. but, i have to admit, that this is just the begining. i mean, c'mmon, there are many things out there that waiting to be in a part of this life, even the problem part. i feel so shame, when i thing i can do, but i just don't do that. and it's makes me i am the mean person for myself.

i have to make to admit that i have an enermous love from the people arround me. it's so overwhelming. i need to stop what i start. stop the bad idea of being a mean Me. i mean, stop being the people that i don't wanna be. and it's time to start a new Me. a new me that can be a part of my Dream for sure.

from the deepest heart, i have a faith that i can get "it". just give me a little more time Alloh, i promise You.
oh dear baby chaos, hope i can destroye you one by one, step by step and please, i am begging you not to come again in a short or even forever.

i know i am a nerd in some way. but why we have to be cool, if we can be nerd. cool is lame. (trying to make myself happy, but what kind of motivation is this? but, it's for my dream sake)

let's rock Debbie....let's do rock....

xoxo

DeMiNa